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(death cycle) - 死亡循環

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Emily Violet The sound I made when I realised Begotten had made another album!!! And that it is their best yet!!! Favorite track: (ribcage) - 肋骨.

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“死の甘さ”を錯覚させる悪質ハッシュウェイヴ…実に恐るべき退廃と腐敗の美‼
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A vicious Hushwave that deludes us "death is so sweet"… A truly scary beauty of decadence & ruin! Favorite track: (decayed) - 腐爛的.

triggerbunny So much mystery & myth to Begotten- doesn't matter- the music is solid. Favorite track: (solemn) - 莊嚴.

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1.	(drowned) - 淹死的 01:49	buy track
2.	(fascination) - 魅力 03:16	buy track
3.	(scattered) - 疏散 01:01	buy track
4.	(vision) - 想像 02:26	buy track
5.	(poltergeist) - 惡作劇精神 01:22	buy track
6.	(whispers) - 竊竊私語 02:37	buy track
7.	(weeping) - 哭泣 01:56	buy track
8.	(ribcage) - 肋骨 02:46	buy track
9.	(intestines) - 腸 01:14	buy track
10.	(boiling) - 沸騰 01:45	buy track
11.	(ceremonious) - 隆重 01:57	buy track
12.	(solemn) - 莊嚴 01:56	buy track
13.	(tearfall) - 落淚 01:38	buy track
14.	(decayed) - 腐爛的 01:19	buy track
15.	(incendiary) - 燃燒的 03:23	buy track
16.	(moonlight) - 月光 01:51	buy track
17.	(marrow) - 骨髓 02:58	buy track
18.	(slithering) - 滑行 00:57	buy track
19.	(rotting) - 腐爛 02:46	buy track
20.	(vengeance) - 復仇 02:20	buy track

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"I'm begotten."

I laughed and shook my head. This wasn't the first time someone joked with me at a show about begotten. People would bring up the project every now and then to me. Most of the time it's fine, but this night I was already a bit annoyed by the way the show went.

"Sure." I said with a chuckle. "So you know my label then?"

"I can prove it," they said, and held up their phone...

It's been a long time since the infamous b e g o t t e n 自杀 sent me 6 full albums at once. Over five years ago I received my first email from this individual and the rest is history. If you aren't caught up on the story (or need a refresher) it might be best to go back to the very first album (life cycle) on this bandcamp and read through each part in order. (life cycle) (hushwave) (phantom psalms) (happy anniversary) (forgive and forget) and (new aura)

Anyway, with how busy I am, I had almost forgotten about begotten entirely. Maybe forgotten isn't the right word, but they slowly slipped from my mind, replaced by countless emails, music making, touring, and other projects I am involved with like GLOBAL CHILL.

My band hit the road once more in the US and Canada and it was going amazing. We were playing packed and sold out rooms, having the time of our lives. That was, until we hit Georgia. The staff who were supposed to be taking care of the show were extremely late. The venue was strange and the stage was tiny. And barely anyone showed up.

This happens from time to time. You can ask any band and they would likely have stories of terrible shows such as this. So we played our set, and I was feeling super bummed out. I stepped outside to cool off for a bit and mingle with my bandmates and fans.

Not long after, someone reached their hand out to me. "I enjoyed your music."

I shook their hand. "Thank you."

They looked at me for a moment too long. Something about the way they stared at me began to creep me out. I nodded at them and smiled, hoping they would move along.

They leaned in close to me. "I'm begotten."

"Sure," I said.

That's when they held up their phone showing me their email. It looked legit enough and I started to get nervous for some reason. Even then, I had my doubts.

"H-hold on." I opened my own phone and sent an email to the same address that had contacted me all those years ago. And sure enough it showed up in their inbox right then and their.

It was begotten.

I didn't know how I should react. I offered to buy them a drink and they obliged. Luckily, the place had some semi-private seating with large wooden walls surrounding booths and we both took a seat.

The conversation that ensued began with a lot of questions from me. But mostly, I was in awe. This was the last thing I expected to happen. And despite the poor quality of the show, my mood flipped on its head. I was ecstatic.

I am not one to share private conversations with the public. In general, it ranged from more about their creation process, how they'd found me in the beginning, and then delved into deeper more philosophical topics. A lot about mental health.

Yes, at one point we took a picture together.
I had to.
imgur.com/oeoBAEE

Though begotten did not want to be shown publicly. I told them I would not show their face to anyone.

And this would have been the happy ending we all wanted. Begotten alive and well. Good conversation. But, oh no. There is more.

A LOT more.

Something came up that rubbed me the wrong way. Begotten continually mentioned a group of individuals that they had been speaking with. At first I dismissed it mentally. It was nothing of note.

The more begotten spoke of them though, the more concerning it became. They were described as a collective of sorts. A mysterious number of artists and philosophers who created music. It wasn't until the mention of a manifesto and a set of rules and commandments that I started to take note.

Begotten had supposedly met them online through the contact point on their bandcamp page. Begotten spoke of them so highly. They seemed extremely excited, as they were going to meet in real life for the first time in October.

I didn't have much time to explore this topic. I was being badgered by my bandmates to come help tear our stage down and load the trailer. I won't reveal the name of the 'group' that I thought resembled a cult in many ways. I don't know enough about them yet, and I don't want to misrepresent them, or give them unneeded attention.

Before I could bid my fairwell, begotten offered me this album, (death cycle) - 死亡循環. Apparently, they had been sitting on it for a little while. Created when they were in a very dark place (something I can relate to with my own art and creation process) We hammered out the details fairly quickly. I hadn't even listened to it yet, but I knew it would be phenomenal.

I was so happy. A swing of moods from depressed to ecstatic in such a short period of time. The burst of energy would surely help me in loading all of our equipment out of the venue.

"Thank you for coming out to meet me," I told them before standing up.

Begotten looked at me with a strange intensity. They reached out with a crumpled piece of line paper. Placing it in my hand, they stared at me for one last, long moment, then walked away.

I left the secluded table where we'd been sitting and unraveled the crinkled paper.

'HELP ME' was written in blue pen.

My heart sank. I ran to where begotten had walked but they were nowhere to be found. I sprinted to the parking lot, my eyes shooting in all directions. "Begotten!" I called out.

No. They'd disappeared.

Two of my band mates lugged a speaker cabinet out from the door beside me. "Can we get some help here?"

They had no clue of the significance of everything that had just transpired. I was at a loss for what to do. I didn't know whether to make a search party or call someone for help. All I knew was that I had to do SOMETHING.

And believe me, I managed to do a lot. But that's a story for another day.

For now, enjoy this monumental new piece by the legendary b e g o t t e n 自杀. I played the album front to back many times in the band vehicle for the rest of the tour, contemplating everything that had happened. It's begotten at their best. Not just because it's new, but because it feels so refined and thought out. Emotional and devastating. Plunderphonics at their peak. (at least to me)

Enjoy.

Here is the text released with this new album, (death cycle) - 死亡循環

"Take her swiftly to the grave
Make it sudden and tragic
Painful and decisive
Fulfill your ill-fated purpose
A glimpse of sapphic beauty
Pure love and affectionate folly
Gliding clouds tiptoe vision
Piercing scream within
Gore splattered photographs
Intestine affections
Feminine puzzle pieces
Foul urine scattered remnants
Dull lifeless exit
Unanswered emotion
Gathered mourning fools
Black spills from their gaping mouths
Satisfied, Lively, Peaceful
Blissful ignorance"
- b e g o t t e n 自杀

"...and all this time I'm thinking of ways to go."

我曾多次想過自殺。我患有抑鬱症，發現很多事情很難處理。顯然我從來沒有經歷過，我不是某種電腦幽靈。我認為這很大程度上源於我的中學時代。就在我父母離婚後，我的狗死了，我因情緒化飲食而體重增加到足以被認為是“臨床肥胖”的程度，出於某種原因，醫生決定在幾年內不讓我這樣做。這段時間我受到了很多欺負，我感到自己、朋友和家人之間存在著真正的距離感。有點像世界上只有我一個人。我現在好多了。我幾乎減掉了所有體重，學會了更好的社交技能，並且成為了一個非常快樂的人。從很多方面來說，這場鬥爭確實幫助我成為了一個更好的人。它確實幫助我培養了幽默感，因為我必須學會嘲笑很多狗屎。它幫助我臉皮變厚，因為我必須學會處理別人的廢話。總的來說，我認為它只是讓……變得更好。這讓我想繼續活下去。現在，看到這張照片後，我真正知道了想要停止活著的感覺。謝謝你。

說實話，自殺的想法真的很可笑。我覺得把你的頭炸開的想法很滑稽。更有趣的是你實際上必須自己做。直播、秘密進行，都沒有關係。只是人們可以通過最簡單的事情來自殺。還有一些人出去自殺，因為他們的父母不讓他們養狗之類的。荒謬的。就像有人不讓你吃糖一樣！就他媽的早點去死吧！

我一直在想自殺。我不知道我的問題是什麼。每天我醒來都感覺很糟糕，但我為什麼要關心呢？我沒有退路。沒人在乎。沒有我，世界會更美好。我就是這麼看的。為什麼我還活著？我真是太沒用了我的生活很糟糕，而且只會變得更糟，除非我自殺。但我不會這麼做。也許如果我有槍我會再試一次。但我這裡沒有槍。所以我想我會堅持吃藥。我有很多平板電腦。過去兩年留下的很多。他們說自殺者總是採取同樣的東西。

我將在星期一結束我的生命。我的家人要走了。他們一走，我就會喝得酩酊大醉。這是最簡單的部分。因此，當我宿醉醒來、因酒中毒而浮腫時，我就會服用藥片，然後就結束了。甚至沒有人會注意到我已經走了。問題是，如果我今天死了，明天就沒人關心了。人們不會為死去的人感到悲傷。他們哀悼了幾天，然後繼續前進。所以當週五到來時，一切都會恢復正常。儘管我不會在那裡。

This album is tagged with "hushwave." I'm still not sure if this is the genre they've come up with for their own sound, but to me, it fits perfectly.

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